My Tinnitus – Despair

And so my journey with tinnitus formally began at 10pm Thursday March 2nd 2017, as I said I was hearing some noise in my right ear but it was intermittent up until this date. I was sat on the sofa watching tv when my right ear all of a sudden made some kind of vacuum feeling and noise (the sensation is difficult to put into words) followed by a high pitched tone that didn’t stop! 

I sat there panicked and waiting for it to stop but it didn’t, it carried on all night and right into the next morning. I didn’t sleep a wink and had to go into work, I told everyone about the noise and they all responded with that look on their face which said “tinnitus the debilitating disease!” I may as well have been contagious! 

One of my bosses gave me some hope and said he had it for about a week but it was due to ear wax and that a whack to the side of head should fix it, I tried that, I tried holding my nose and blowing through it in an attempt to unblock my ears and stop the piercing shrill! 

It was difficult to focus at work it was difficult to do anything, and by the Friday evening (after hearing terrible stories and lots of googling tinnitus), I had spiralled into a complete negative frenzy of tinnitus despair, and was convinced that I was doomed forever!. 

I couldn’t sleep, the high pitch was deafening and I was becoming desperate, by the Saturday morning I had an emergency appointment booked with a doctor.

A person stands facing a wall with fists raised, symbolizing frustration or despair in a dimly lit room.

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